Monday, January 16, 2012

why... so... difficult...

You never realize how hard and tiring it is to grow a child until you're in the middle of it...


I hit the 12-week mark over the weekend. Next doctor's appointment is Friday. And I am dragging. I definitely think I've been sicker with this one than I was with Abby. I just pray that the nausea doesn't last as long as it did with her -- I didn't start feeling better until around 22 weeks last time...

Everything seems to take so much more effort to accomplish! Simple things like cooking meals and sweeping the floor and keeping up with laundry... Some days I feel downright worthless! And tending to a needy, moody 19-month-old on top of it. Whew! I mostly just want to sit and read (I got a Kindle for Christmas :) or sleep...

So I apologize that I haven't been consistent with posting here recently. It's not for lack of content -- I've done projects and recipes and garden planning and have been taking pictures along the way! I just have a hard time concentrating to write while Abby's awake (heck, I have a hard time concentrating on much of anything these days!), so that limits me to before she's up in the morning, afternoon naptime, and evenings. Mornings have become write emails/check Facebook time (not to mention she's been waking up earlier and earlier recently), by evening my brain has turned to mush (and the nausea is in high gear -- whoever called it "morning" sickness in the first place anyway?!), and naptime... well, naptime is naptime. ;)

I'm sorry if it sounds like I'm complaining, or venting, or making excuses -- I just want y'all to be aware of what's going on in my life, and that I have no desire to completely shut this blog down yet! I'm still here, really, I am! Just please pray that the second trimester really is the "easiest of the three", and that relief comes quickly...

Abby's napping. Time for me to go do the same!



10 comments:

  1. Congrats on your pregnancy! Try to enjoy and don't work too hard! It's the most important job you'll ever have, and, from the viewpoint of one is done having children, you'll wish you had relished it more when you can't have it anymore! The rest of the work will be there when you're done. I'm sure a million people you know are telling you the same stuff! I found you at NOBH! Be encouraged!

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  2. Thanks so much for your words of encouragement! I really needed to hear them today! Thanks for visiting :)

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  3. Wow, I can so relate to this one. I had six children and the worst ever was the nausea. I had such strange feelings during this stage. I just wanted to lay down and that was about the only position that it felt somewhat better. Congratulations anyway, this too will pass and you will get better soon. Enjoy the good moments and know that others are praying for you.

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  4. I hear you! I'm at 26 weeks and still take naps almost daily. Don't feel guilty - you're growing a human! It's hard work!

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  5. Congratulations! Do things at your leisure. Nap if you can. Eat if you can. Plan your cooking carefully, etc. My babies are 17 months apart. My first pregnancy was textbook perfect. My second was a bit different. I could smell everything! That was the worst. Everything I smelled made me nauseous. To grow a little human being takes strength and sometimes a lot of mental willpower, but in the end, you get a baby. That's the best! Have fun and good luck.

    Karina

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  6. I know what you are feeling right now but I can tell you the bigger problems will begin after the birth:) I've got 4 really active children and that was the most peaceful time as they were under my heart:)

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  7. I remember the nausea with my son. I took a week of not being sick that I finally realized that I was truly in the second trimester. Hope you are feeling better soon.

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  8. It doesn't sound like complaining. It sounds like you are a real mom (just like me) not the alien one's who are always pretty, who go to gym, and are always fresh although they are a mom of three or more. I don't think those stories were true.

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  9. Oh I know how you feel! I always wish we could be like cats and be pregnant for 2 months hahah.

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  10. Ah, yes, it takes so much more energy than we realize to grow our little ones!

    I never understood until I was pregnant. Before then, I admit with embarrassment how I would look at a pregnant co-worker rolling her chair everywhere and wonder why in the world she just didn't get up and get moving.

    Oops.
    Then I got pregnant, and fully understood...

    Take your time and take care of yourself and your child.

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